I write as a physician, not as a moralist, but any physician working in
modern civilization cannot help noticing our cultural deafnss to the wisdom of the body. The path to health, for an individual or a society.
must begin by taking pain into account. Instead, we silence pain when we should be straining our ears to hear it ...
- Dr Paul Brand
By Gilles Bédard
Christine Longaker has been a student of Sogyal Rinpoche (author of The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying) since 1980, and served for nine
years as the principal coordinator of Rigpa Fellowship, the association sponsoring Buddhist teachings under Rinpoche's guidance in the United
States. Her direct experiences of caregiving, and of healing her grief after her husband's death twenty years ago, led her to
become a pioneer in the hospice movement; she helped to establish the Hospice of Santa Cruz County in California, and became its president.
Since ceasing her hospice work, Christine has given hundreds of training seminars on the care of the dying throughout the United States, Canada,
and Europe. She has taught college courses on death and dying, provided training for nurses, ministers, and hospice caregivers, and counseled
the dying and their families for many years.
Currently, she is working closely with Rinpoche to develop the comprehensive education and training program Spiritual Care for Living and Dying,
which applies the compassion and wisdom of the Buddhism teachings to the needs of people today: living, dying, and bereaved. In addition
to Christine's seminars, the program supports a growing network of study and practice groups for health-care professionals who are integrating
the teachings into their life and work.
Q: You wrote in your book - Facing Death and Finding Hope: "In truth, facing illness, suffering or death is a fall into Grace." How can we
see death as a gift, a very special gift, indeed?
We often go through life half-asleep.
We don't really know what we are doing, or what we want to accomplish.
We haven't clarified what our values are.
We often take our life and our relationships for granted.
We get lost in so many distractions and interesting things.
We always have a sense that there's something important and special about
life and even about death but we fail to really take the time to look at it.
And normally, from that point of view, when we fall ill, go through some sort of crisis or are facing death, we think that this is the worst thing, that it's
a tragedy. But if we keep our mind open when we enter an experience that I would call "falling out of the healthy world", we can ask ourselves:
What benefit can this bring me? Can I find a gift in this illness?
I don't believe there is a gift or a lesson already given in suffering. But if we ask ourselves: How can I learn or grow, even as I go through
this change or this loss, we often find very unexpected wonderful treasures that come to us.
We realize how precious every day and every relationship is, how important our choices are, how important it is to remember our true values and really make the time to live according
to them. And as we do, we find a richness and meaning that we hadn't even suspected were there before.
Q: You also said "Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional". What is the difference between the "unavoidable suffering" and the "unnecessary suffering" we experience through our life?
A: Because we are born into this life, we obviously will have experiences, for example, of physical changes and suffering, in the process of aging
or with illness or even with a very dramatic accident. We can experience discomfort and even a massive amount of pain. As
we are facing death, our body begins to deteriorate and we lose our power to do the things that we enjoy in life.
None of this is personal, it's not happening to us as some sort of punishment or as a sign we have the wrong kind of personality, because
in fact, suffering is universal. Every human being goes through unwanted physical pain as well as the deterioration of aging.
All of us experience losses in which we either don't get something we want or what we most cherish is taken away from us, for example, when
the people we love leave or die. And this is not easy to go through but it's part of human life.
What becomes unnecessary suffering, the optional part of that pain, is if we don't learn from the losses that we go through in life, if
we continue our old habits of grasping, or neediness, feeling that we have to have certain things in our life to be happy, then we build for
ourselves inescapable cycles of suffering that keep us going round and round.
Our needs can never be satisfied and even if they are, it's only temporary.
Everything that we grasp after eventually changes, dissolves or dies; thus we keep setting ourselves up for disappointment, pain, anger and hurt.
Yet experiences of suffering can open doors for us, and help us to see there is another way to approach life besides cycling from grasping to loss and disappointment.
Instead of looking to the external world for lasting happiness
and peace, we can turn our mind inward and discover the part of our being that is beyond change, loss and grief
- our skylike essence that is already whole, peaceful, radiant with compassion and love.
Then the losses and deepest pain in our life can become a gift, propelling us forward in our spiritual path and helping us feel richer as we go
through life, because we become more and more free, at ease, and naturally
Q: How can we change our suffering into a positive action and see
the possibility of liberation in our life?
A: When we are in the midst of very great suffering, sometimes it is
hard to get another perspective, to find a feeling of spaciousness or
kindness towards ourselves as we go through the suffering. But in fact
even though it's hard, we must find a way to do it. Otherwise we just
become more contracted and more frightened as we go through our life,
resisting and having an aversion to the different changes and losses
we go through.
So, what I found helpful in my own life was to approach through meditating,
through listening to teachings, through talking with friends, always
keeping this question in mind: "How can I understand my suffering in
a different way? How can I shift my perspective and find spaciousness,
freedom and peace again in my being?"
If we really keep asking this question and try to learn from life experiences,
from stopping and spending the time to just look at a beautiful flower
or sit on a hillside gazing into the sky, we start to realize that there
are other possibilities.
We can let each moment of joy nurture us and remind us that there is
another way to approach life. And slowly, when we keep these questions
in mind, more and more gifts come into our life that will enrich us
and help us to find a spiritual path.
Q: You started your spiritual path through a dramatic event, the
death of your husband. Could you tell me about it?
A: In a sense, that was a perfect example - when you get really stuck
and there is no way out - then sooner or later, you have to open yourself
to realize that there is another reality, another way to see the
meaning of your life and go through it.
When my husband was first diagnosed with
acute leukemia, we were both very young, I hadn't had any direct
encounters with death before and I realized that we were facing the
very real possibility of his death. I remember thinking to myself that
all I ever heard about death is that it is something very tragic and
unfair, it's the worst thing that can happen to you. I said to my husband,
"If that's all that death is, then no matter how long you have to live,
we're just going to be in this tragic story and we're going to feel
helpless and victims of our circumstances."
Neither of us, at that time, had a spiritual path, but I remember saying
to my husband, "I don't know exactly what death is or if there is anything
after death but maybe we can try to view the fact that we're facing
death as a gift in our life."
So, even though it seems like a huge package of unwanted suffering,
if we view death as a gift maybe we can find out what the gift is. We
didn't have an answer at the beginning. But we knew that we had been
taking our lives for granted, not communicating well in our relationship
and not really appreciating that our life had any meaning or direction.
By deciding to view death as a gift, even though during that year we
still had a lot of suffering, we made mistakes and often
still hurt each other unconsciously in the things that we did, we
had to work through those mistakes very quickly. We had committed to
our intention to change and live in a more meaningful and loving way.
So, just changing our view point about death was an incredible gift
for us; even the mistakes that we made became gifts because they forced
us to connect with our love and communicate more
At the time my husband died, I felt that part of the relationship was
complete, that we had done the best we could. Even before he died, we
were able to apologize to each other for the hard times we'd given each
other and also express our gratitude for the year that we'd had, the
love that we'd shared and how much we had grown. So when he died, I
felt very peaceful and I could really let him go with all my love because
I knew we had lived his last year of life really well, even with its
At the same time, I sensed that there was another, deeper dimension
to death, and that something important was happening in that transition.
And I didn't have a clue what to do for him, how to support him spiritually,
both before and after he died. My desire to understand the deeper dimension
of death launched me into doing hospice work as well as finding an authentic
Q: You mention an aspect which I found very significative: "Gazing
continually into the mirror of death during the year of his illness
encouraged us to find and commit to a meaningful direction in our lives.
Rather than feeling we were helpless
victims, we committed to creating the kind of life we truly wanted
in our final year together. This change came about in the way we decided
to view death on that very first day in the hospital."
A: It is making that commitment to life. That's what I found beautiful
in this quote by Brother David Steindl-Rast: "You're not just given
life, you have to actually choose life, you have to make a commitment
to live and to find a meaning and a direction." And until you do, you're
just half alive, you just feel like you're wandering around. I felt
that way as a young person. I thought life was just to enjoy and to
have fun. It didn't really matter what you did, what you valued. You
could just fool around, nothing really counted.
But suddenly, when you are face to face with death, you realize that
this is a really precious time, this chance that we have in our life
is not going to last.
we do in this life is very significant.
We can bring a lot of benefit into this world, we can heal a relationship
with somebody we've had a hard time with or change things and give ourselves
meaningful direction. I still make mistakes and am sometimes very unaware,
but I know that its possible to contribute and make a difference in other
Q: Dying can be a way to share some very precious moments with our
family and loved ones, and develop a special commitment in our lives.
Is there a way to see death as a guide to bring a sacred environment into
A: Yes, there is a way. Many of us who follow a religious tradition tend
to fragment our lives, keeping the spiritual part of our life for one
part of the day or one day of the week. Then our life looks like small,
unrelated pieces - our social life, work life, family life, spiritual
life, and so on - which is why we feel so scattered and exhausted most
of the time. We have no unifying principle or sacred context that gives
our lives and our choices meaning.
So, if we are already on a spiritual path, we can learn to see that
everything we do in life is part of that path, every act, every communication
and choice we make helps to form the meaning of our life. Every experience
we have, whether happy or painful, and how we understand and go through
our experiences is an expression of the ultimate meaning or destiny
of our life.
As we become more aware of the sacred context of our life, we start
to realize that even talking with a stranger on the street or washing
dishes could be a sacred act if we do it with a motivation of compassion,
with all our presence and awareness and authenticity. We need to establish
this integrity in our mind and heart, seeing that everything we experience
can become part of our personal and spiritual evolution.
There are many people who don't have a religious path yet have an intuitive
feeling that there is a deeper dimension to death as well as to life.
One way of making a deeper contact with
the sacredness of life is to contemplate every morning on the suffering
unfolding on a daily basis to so many people throughout the world, on
the suffering we witness in our friends and family, and even on our
As we contemplate on all of this suffering and allow it to touch our
hearts, then we feel more of a connection to others, more compassion,
more committed to making our lives meaningful and evolving personally
and spiritually, so that we might be of service to others. So, that
is another way to begin experiencing the sacredness of what we do.
can actually contribute to other people's happiness or to relieving
their suffering by living in a meaningful way, by giving to life rather
than just taking.
Q: Being aware of our journey through a spiritual path could also be
a way of surrendering and learning impermanence?
A: That's true. We constantly experience change and loss, and impermanence.
Our normal attitude towards these situations is that they are only negative,
or we conclude we are somehow being personally tortured and punished.
When we react with negativity or helplessness
to change and impermanence, we are creating more emotion, more grasping
and thus more suffering. Alternatively, if we really use these losses
to contemplate on our own eventual death, and ask ourselves: what can
I take with me when I die, we find that each experience of impermanence
and loss is a chance for us to rehearse our death.
Instead of blaming our circumstances, we can look inside and ask:
What is the most important thing, what am I really doing with my time
and my energy that will make a difference?
Slowly we understand that our worldly situations and pleasures are not
lasting, and that we cannot ultimately hold onto them or take them with
us. This realization helps us learn to let go with grace, and to begin
grasping less in the first place, which is even better.
This is how we become more and more free The most important thing is
discovering the deathless, unchanging, innermost essence of our being,
which is already whole, peaceful, open and free. Looking within and
getting in touch with this essence, which is perfect wisdom and infinite
compassion, is the source of the true happiness and well-being for which
we have been yearning.
Q: Over your years of working with death and dying, you developed
the Four Tasks of Living and Dying - Understanding and Transforming
Suffering, Making a Connection, Healing Relationships and Letting Go,
Preparing Spiritually for Death and Finding Meaning
in Life. Could you summarize them and tell us how we can integrate
them not only into our work but also into our daily life?
A: It's an interesting story how I came to describe these four tasks.
I was starting to give some in-service workshops for hospice caregivers
and I realized that they were already experts at understanding the needs
of the dying and the family dynamics.
What they needed was to talk about the really tough situations: how
to deal with angry family members,
what to do in cases when nobody will let the persons know that they're
dying, how to help somebody who feels
depressed and hopeless and has no spiritual faith, how to support
a parent leaving behind young children, and how to connect with a patient
who has dementia or is comatose.
In examining the source of these problems, I started by naming them
The Four Principal Difficulties or Fears of Dying. And then I slowly
realized that actually, these problems reveal what we need to do in
order to conclude our lives well; so I re-named them the Four Tasks
Dying is not a passive time where you give up and give in, it's actually
a very active time, our last possibility for growth. I realized that
they were only the tasks of dying if we never took care of them when
we're living, which is why I now call them The Four Tasks of Living
We face these same tasks when we are told we have a life threatening
illness and are still working toward healing, when
we are going through bereavement, or experiencing a major life loss;
these are the same tasks for caregivers as well as for those who are
facing death. They include the need to understand and transform our
suffering, because we experience suffering, pain and loss, throughout
our entire life - not just when we face death.
We need to have a more positive context or way to understand why we
suffer, and what opportunity lies in suffering.
One of the worst parts about an experience of suffering is our fear
that it is meaningless, and that we are helpless to overcome it. The
Buddhist philosophy of connectedness and compassion helps us see that
we are not alone in suffering. By reflecting on the suffering of others
and dedicating our own suffering or spiritual practice for their benefit,
we can dispel much of our own misery, and give a deeper meaning to our
As we generate deeper feelings of love and compassion this way, it
opens and heals our heart, helping us evolve as we go through life,
and ultimately, by connecting us to our innermost essence, which is
wisdom and compassion, we can remove the causes of suffering and attain
The second task, the need to heal our relationships, make a connection
and let go, refers to our need to have authentic communication with
others, based on mutual respect, acceptance and understanding. The dying
especially need frequent and genuine reassurance of other's love and
affection - but unfortunately, they often get the opposite. During life,
but especially before we die, we need to heal past wounds in our relationships,
drop all the conditions we normally tack onto our love, and learn to
accept and love each other exactly as we are.
The third task, the need to understand death and prepare spiritually
for death, shows us that death in fact mirrors the meaning of our life.
What have we really come into this life to do? What is the most important
thing, after all, when we come to die? All the religious traditions
of the world describe that there is an aspect to our being, a spiritual
essence, which is deathless. And the nature of our existence after death
is connected to two things - whatever we do in our life, and how we
are just at the moment of death.
Finally, whether or not we have a religious or spiritual orientation,
each of us needs to find a meaning in our life.
must find a thread or context which allows us to know that we are using
our life well.
context might be a wish to evolve into becoming more whole, a better
human being, the wish to heal the wounds from our life, or to give something
back to life, and to our community.
We need to feel our existence has meaning to at least one other person.
that we are cared for, or that we are capable of giving love to others.
This is possible, with good communication and connection, at any stage
of life, regardless of our physical or cognitive limitations. And it
is vital to find a meaning in our life as we face death, so that we
will not die empty-handed.
Q: Could you tell us about the Tonglen and Self-Tonglen?
A: True compassion, known in Sanskrit as Bodhicitta, is unconditional,
limitless and unbiased in any way, shape or form. Bodhicitta means "the
heart of our enlightened mind." The wisdom and compassion that radiates
from our true nature is compared to the sun: the radiance of the sun
is wisdom and the warmth of the sun's rays are the compassion and love
which are given out freely toward all creation. That is the way the
compassion of our wisdom nature really is.
The compassion practice known as Tonglen, which means "giving and receiving,"
encourages us to connect with our wisdom nature, with this pure and
profound compassion that is the core of our being. As we connect with
that indestructible wisdom in our meditation, we slowly find the courage
and the joy to relieve the suffering of other beings.
In the Tonglen practice, with each in-breath, we imagine taking in the
suffering of other beings in the form of a dark cloud, and as it touches
the radiant, sun-like bodhicitta in our heart it is transformed. Then,
with each out-breath we give out, in the form of light, all of our love,
all of our forgiveness, all of our happiness and joy. The Tonglen is
an extraordinary practice of compassion which enables us to become fearless
and confident, because we start to trust in our true nature rather than
our ordinary fearful conditioned mind that is always trying to keep
suffering at bay.
When we first begin doing the Tonglen practice, we may not have this
confidence yet, so it might be helpful to train in the Self-Tonglen
first, to practice taking in our own suffering, our negativity, judgments
or aversion of pain and give out all of our love, happiness, understanding,
The best thing we can do is to realize that we are facing death right
now. We have to engage in our spiritual practice very meaningfully,
as though it were our very last day. In this way, we are training ourselves,
allowing our spiritual practice to fully enter our being and become
part of our flesh and bones, so it becomes our whole way of perceiving
and being in the world. And if we were to die unexpectedly or to
find out that we have an incurable illness, our practice would really
be there for us as a support. But what if a person is very close to
death and doesn't have the chance to develop such a dedicated spiritual
practice - what can they do?
It is very good to just call out for help, to invoke the sacred presence
of whomever you believe in: God, Buddha or Christ. Then, pray to this
Presence that you might be supported in your illness and your suffering,
pray that he or she may guide and protect you fearlessly through the
process of dying and help you let go of your attachment to this life
and turn towards the truth.
Even if a person has no spiritual path, the bottom line in helping them
to die well is to die not feeling empty-handed but knowing that their
life has had meaning, that they have contributed to us in their life,
or in their process of dying. So, as we relate to a dying person and
give our love and invite them to tell us the story of their life, what
they suffered and what they learned, we are actually helping them to
not die empty-handed.
Q: How can we help someone who have difficulty communicating with
his family or loved one? How can we express them our love and deep feelings
when they are near death and sometimes unconscious?
A: Well, there are two things. First, people sometimes have a hard time
communicating their very deep feelings as they approach this coming
loss. They might find it easier to open up this communication first
with a counselor or social worker. That may help them understand what
is most important about their connection, and how to express this to
the dying person.
I encourage caregivers and family members to remember that if they keep
procrastinating and putting off saying what they need to, the person
that they love might become unconscious and unable to communicate. Then
they will lose this precious opportunity they have now; they will feel
doubly bereft, from losing their loved one and the possibility they
had had to enjoy the relationship and communicate fully. So, I encourage
them to make this genuine connection early on and not be afraid of the
natural sadness that will come because that's part of their love, it's
all right for it to be there.
There are other people who, as you said, have lost the ability to communicate
verbally, though we must remember that on many levels, communication
is happening all the time. Through touch, being together even in silence,
the communication is really what we are feeling in our heart. If we
have a hard time using words to express our feeling, we should slow
down, be more peaceful and with awareness try and see what is really
true and then express this to the person - even if he or she has dementia.
We must try to also listen with our heart and feel what the other person
may be expressing in a non-verbal way.
Some family members told me that they really had to push their loved
one, before he or she died, to simply say "I love you". But what an
extraordinary gift it is! For the dying person's children or partner,
hearing "I love you," "I am sorry," or, "thank you for all you've done"
one more time is a memory they can carry with them for the rest of their
Q: How can people deal with the death of a child?
A: I myself don't have direct experience with dying children but I've
learned a lot about it from others who do. Children pick up the feeling
and the view point about death from their parents.
If they have a very negative or frightening view of death, this is
what the child will feel. If the parents have a more positive, life-affirming,
or spiritual view of death, then a dying child will feel more secure.
Thus it is vital to support the parents, because when they can come
to terms with the loss of their child, then the child will have an easier
time as well.
It is important to acknowledge all of the layers of the parent's pain,
to allow it to be expressed and released. Of course, there are no words
to describe how difficult it is; there's nothing, in this life, like
seeing a child in pain without being able to do something. But we can
also help parents to see that their own attachment and fear may make
the child's pain worse.
So it is vital for parents to find sources of support and release --
perhaps through a parent's support group, with a counselor, or by writing
out and releasing their fears and attachment. We are naturally afraid
to let go, afraid that by accepting the death, it means we do not love
our child. But beyond our attachment, there is still a pure love there.
As Elizabeth Kübler-Ross says, "Your child may die, but real love doesn't
Q: It seems easier for children to die because they don't have a
lifelong habit of attachment and grasping as we do.
A: That's true. If children are given good support in their process
of being ill and dying, if they have really caring caregivers and a
good communicative family, for them dying is not so difficult. They
have often a natural trust or confidence in life and a very natural
spirituality. It makes sense for them to pray or to call out for help.
So, letting go, as you said, is not so hard for them. The pain they
often suffer is worrying about their siblings or parents. Of course,
we have to be kind to ourselves. It's natural to have an attachment
for children. It's equally important to realize that when it's time
to really let somebody that you love go, we need to think about what
is best for them in that moment, and not make them suffer more on our
Q: You personally experienced two aspects of death: first, facing
it with the death of your husband and then doing hospice work and giving
workshops and lectures. What did you learn from death?
A: I've learned that our failures are wonderful fuel for us to change
and become better human beings. The more I keep my own death in mind,
the more I'm forced to change and grow and pay attention to what it
is I'm taking refuge in, what my real values are. Because of not knowing
how to fully support my husband at the time of his death, I entered
a spiritual path.
I'm very grateful now to the suffering that my husband and I went though
because it brought something far richer and more meaningful in my life.
Because of the spiritual path I found after his death, I now feel a
deeper confidence - not just intellectual but a confidence born from
my meditation practice - that death can be something wonderful.
And the gift for me now is that as I travel and teach and give seminars
and present my book, I can assure other people that there is a spiritual
dimension to death and to life. Knowing this is extremely helpful. In
whatever spiritual tradition we follow, if we deepen our connection
to the truth and make it part of our being, we can really give strength
to other people when they suffer. And the joy this brings is beyond
©2006 Gilles Bédard